More busyness tomorrow. I’ll flip the page and update as I’m able. Have a great day.
Dori at Backup Brain follows up on her Fray 4 posting and our weblog community reactions to it: “If everyone’s perceiving themselves on the outside and everyone else as being on the inside, who’s really in/out? ”
When I’ve gotten into similar discussions with my friend Greg, he insists ‘they’re all hoping we don’t notice that they’re faking it’. Sometimes I think he’s dead-on right.
I have a real love/hate relationship with tv. I find if I stray too far or too long from something like PBS (public television) I lose all semblance of centeredness and am prone to what can only charitably be called ‘fits’. I rant. I rave. Worse, I begin to pontificate. People who pontificate generally bore me. It disappoints me to bore even myself. The tv makes me read less, think less, react more. This comes up again, actually, here for the first time, it comes up a lot in my inner spaces, because of trying to watch the Olympics and being assaulted by the commentary. The Olympics occupies a special, elevated place in my imagination, somewhere noble, where it is not necessarily ideal, but those participating strive at some level for it to be so. Something about the commentary and advertising just aggravates a place in me where I delude myself that I’m even-tempered, if not at least under fairly firm rein. I point at the tv and lecture it, sternly. Audrey is in the other room, but I hear her voice in my head, or at least a voice that has taken the form of her voice reminding me that ‘they can’t hear you’. And I laugh, such that both the dog and cat wake and stare at me as though (so I imagine) I have lost my mind. More laughter, further disturbing the cat. So many illusions of progress, the illusory part starkly illuminated by the rants and emotional excesses as I gaze into the pail of muddy water roiling that I thought was settling. Sometimes I think that these attempts at emotional and spiritual progress are measured on a logarithmic scale, each increment a tenfold, a hundredfold, a thousandfold greater than the previous one. I am reminded here as I waver towards the ‘its so hard and I have so far to go’ attitude of a quote (probably paraphrased) from a forgotten author that ‘when measuring how far one has to go, one should occasionally be mindful of how far one has come’ and the ever-present truth that it is the journey rather than the goal. Everyone is doing the best they can with what they have, even ourselves. Perhaps the hardest one to extend charity to is yourself.
Al is back doing clinical nursing tonight. Sort of. Have a good night at work Al.
Brent writes about the Presumption of Nixon today. I was a Junior in High School when Watergate broke (Democratic Party Offices Burgled). When things started to get sticky for the President later in the semester I ended up in a screaming match with my American Government instructor, Mr. Colglazier. (Its funny the names you remember). I ended up getting kicked out of class and sent to the Principal’s office. This was one of the seminal episodes in my life when I learned the value of shutting up in front of authority figures. I really got in trouble when i called then President Nixon a ‘lying son of a bitch’ in class. Mr. Colglazier was then the county chairman for the Republican Party. (point of information-I grew up in small town eastern Kansas which is staunchly Republican.) Oops. I ended up having to apologize to him and the class not only for profanity in the class, not only for yelling at my instructor after he said ‘The President of this country does not lie to the citizenry’ (I did call him a deluded idiot, oops again) , but also <cough, cough> ‘for presuming to question the character of the President of the United States’. Oh well. It was a different time and I was a different person. Sort of. I guess this is a long, roundabout, and excessively personal way of saying ‘I agree Brent, me too.’
Craig at BookNotes has way too many good pointers today to link to separately. Margaret Mead, Banned Books Week, Archaeology and Historic Preservation. Heck, just go there and stroll about …
Long day with lots of balls in the air, the first day of a big construction project. A good day, but with some fatigue at the end.
Lets see what is out there.
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Lots of work related activity, starting with the Contractor’s orientation at 8 followed by field assistance to the contractors and their subs. I’ll catch up as I can…
Good Morning!
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