blivet 2.0

4/30/2000

blivet 4/30/2000

Filed under: from blivet ETP — Hal @ 5:53 pm

[TV] Well, tonight’s episode of The X-Files was pretty bad. I guess Duchovny made enough of a stink that he got to perpertrate some pretty self-indulgent drivel as a script. And what’s with Scully saying "I’ve seen things I can’t explain" in the trailer after the announcer intones "The season finale that will change the X-Files forever!"? Now, suddenly the character has seen something she can’t explain?I know, I know Three words son, ‘Get a life!’ It seems pretty apparent even to me that Chris Carter has great premises, settings, situtations, is a damn good storyteller, and really knows how to squick us and still get on prime-time TV. Sadly, he doesn’t seem to be able to flesh out his stories past a certain point and can’t tie things together and bring his story to any kind of a meaningful conclusion. He does seem to have exceptional talent in resolving season finale cliffhangers while keeping the central premise more or less intact. Contrast that with, say, J. M. Straczynski’s vision of Babylon 5, which had the whole story arc written down before production began, JMS just fleshed out the episodes. The X-Files, Millennium, and Babylon 5 pretty much filled my TV universe for the last seven years. Those have been the only shows I had to watch because I thought the writing was soooo good. I found the stories compelling, and I cared about the characters, even the villians. Perhaps especially the villians in some cases. Millennium ended so horribly in several ways, but especially in terms of being completed in a coherent manner. It looks as though The X-Files is suffering from lack of vision and attention to the story and characters in its closing game as well. Fans are strange folk, and I are one. Now, with the exception of The X-Files I find that I’m watching sit-coms like Malcom in the Middle and That 70’s Show, but I don’t get upset if I miss an episode. I’m pretty ripe for a new dramatic hook.

Seems to be a slow day around the blivet haciendia. There was a serious reprovisioning run earlier followed by a trip to the plant nursery. There are about four trees in our future, but which ones? Our average precipitation is less than 4 inches (~10 cm) so we’re leaning towards drought-tolerant natives,like some sort of mesquite (Propolis) and some variety of Ash. I love how Cottonwoods sound in the breeze, but they’re way too fond of water. Its very difficult to find local tree varieties, most of the trees available are for places where water falls from the sky on a regular basis. If we can get the house shaded a bit we should see some dramatic utility bill reduction.

[ETP] The new services via Exodus seem faster. I never quantified the previous response time with Conxion so I can’t be definitive, but it feels faster. Dave of Scripting News will turn 45 on Tuesday. I’ll do the same in mid-August.

[Pagans] Its Walpurgis Night, and Beltane tomorrow. Lots of rites to ensure a good and bountiful harvest.

[Archaeology / Science] I’m neck deep in reading about methodology and typology so I haven’t left stones unturned . We went to Dr. Doom’s DoomFest, the end of academic year party for the Geosciences Department at UNLV yesterday. No bail money was forefited, property damage was limited to spilled beer, reputations remained intact, several dead bovine patties were grilled into submission. A good time was had by all.
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4/29/2000

blivet 4/29/2000

Filed under: from blivet ETP — Hal @ 10:44 am

[National Geographic Society's first "Explorer's in Residence"] Stephen Ambrose, Robert Ballard, Wade Davis, Sylvia Earle, Jane Goodall, Johan Reinhard and Paul Sereno have been appointed to serve as advisers on National Geographic projects and as "beacons of inspiration to adults and children alike who are concerned about natural and cultural resources. "I say follow your heart, never compromise and trust in serendipity. But the only way that serendipity can happen to you is if you put yourself out there where the winds of chance can blow you about." Anthropologist Wade Davis’s quote when asked what he would pass along to the children of the world.

[Cluetrain] 12 steps to recovery from The Manifesto. link thanks to backup brain.

Aprés Moving Day. Things seemed to go OK :-) Thanks to all who made it look so easy from our end and on such short notice. I know it wasn’t effortless. The outages should be over. Thanks!

Both of these items are direct quotations from today’s Scripting News. The first is straightforward, we’ll be unavailable 8PM and 11PM Pacific. The second is Dave’s take on the breakup plan. BTW, I would like to thank Dave for keeping us in the loop concerning scheduled outages, challenges, looming crisises, and just what is going on at UserLand, EditThisPage.Com, and Weblogs.Com. Its nice to have one aspect of my computer life that doesn’t treat me like a mushroom.

[from Scripting News:]

Moving Day

Many UserLand.Com services will be off the air between 8PM and 11PM Pacific tonight. The servers are moving to Exodus. Weblogs.Com, EditThisPage.Com, the main DG, will be offline during the move. Scripting News, this page, will stay online, it’s not being moved. (It’s already at Exodus.) Please pray to Murphy that everything goes well!

“It’s even worse than it appears”

I watched a bunch of roundtables on TV last night about the breakup plan, there wasn’t a software person in sight, and certainly no Web developers. What a nightmare. The politicians, attorneys, journalists and professors have taken over. They’re turning our industry into fodder for Larry King and CNBC. It may be time, once again, to consider making pottery and sailing the Meditteranean.

“I know the rent is in arrears. The dog has not been fed in years. It’s even worse than it appears.”

[Proper attribution is important to me] The fact that I quote so many things directly rather than paraphrasing is probably my academic heritage. You trace the lineage of what you’re trying to say and then you build your ideas upon them.
If I have seen farther than others, it is because I was standing on the shoulders of giants. — Isaac Newton
. If you cuncur and simply want to restate the point, you quote what you’re agreeing with rather than paraphrasing. To paraphrase could imply that you’re trying to position yourself as the author. Ideas and knowledge are all we have to offer, built upon the ideas and work of others. To paraphrase is to imply that the ideas you’re using are either your’s, or common knowledge. These iseas are far from common outside a narrow portion of the web developers world. Outside the domain of software development they seem to be unknown.

[Microsoft - why should I care?] I mentioned yesterday that I think Microsoft should be divided three ways, not just separation of the bowser. Microsoft applications either need to lose access to the undocumented APIs or they ALL need to be made available to developers so that the playing field is leveled. (I may making some assumptions here that might not be valid about the availability of the APIs, but thats not my domain.) If, for example, Corel is trying to kludge some undocumented system calls, that might explain why their virtual memory management sucks such a big green root. If they DO have access to the same calls that, say, MSWord developers do, then they truly are doing a poor job of implementing them in their applications.

This is the same thing as my research. If I don’t have access to archaeolgical site information, how can I do a competent job of interpreting a prehistoric site?
(Agency reviewer) "You didn’t incorporate the imformation from the huge XYZ project"
(Me) "The data was never published! I have no access to that information."
(Agency reviewer) "You can’t do thorough research, yet you call yourself a professional?"

My inabliity to get that data would make me look incompetent and you would contract with an archaeologist that seemed to be able to find the data. If the data is available and I don’t use it, then I’m at best, sloppy, and at worst, stupid. In either case its unprofessional. But, if certain agencies had free and ready access to that information, and other agencies and contracters didn’t, wouldn’t that be unfair? If it could be available, but others had to pay exorbitant fees for access, and then couldn’t include that cost in project proposal budgeting because they have to directly compete with the agency that gets the information for free, is it still unfair? I think you kow my answer. This is not an entirely hypothetical situtation for archaeologists working in southern Neavda.

Now compare this with:-

(You or me) Your application crashes with memory exceptions and gives the system GPFs! If fact, my whole system is unstable now. What’s with all these freakin’ .dll files you put all over the place that are part of the installation? Why don’t you just use the Windows APIs?
(Hapless support person) Those are to implement proceedures like what Office uses, but are undocumented! We’ve tried to reverse engineer them since Microsoft won’t release tthe documentation.
(You or me) Bah! I want my money back! I’ll just use Office. It sucks, but less than your application. I wish <insert favorite, now dead, application replaced by Office or other Microsoft application> worked like it used to!

Does this resonate at all with your computer experience of the last several years? Perhaps because it so resembles my personal occupational terrain is why I keep harping on it.

“I will get by, I will survive.”


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4/28/2000

blivet 4/28/2000

Filed under: from blivet ETP — Hal @ 8:07 am

[Obligatory Microsoft vs. DOJ reference] One company to house the Windows operating system, and the other to include everything else Microsoft.

Lots of reports on this story: CNN, MSNBC, Reuters, PC Week.

Free the browser from the OS group and the applications group and let it compete on its own. It will be become more innovative and standards compliant (look at IE 5 for the Mac), plus they will have to reduce the bloat to remain competitive. That would make three from one. One ring to rule them and one ring to find them. One ring to bring them all and in the darkness bind them … Just kidding. Sorta.

08:00 PDT

Good morning!

David Hurst Thomas will speak on National Public Radio’s Talk of the Nation Science this morning. Listen live at NPR at
TOTN.
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4/27/2000

blivet 4/27/2000 Blooming Mojave

Filed under: Desert West, Las Vegas Local, Nature, from blivet ETP — Tags: , — Hal @ 11:34 am

Blooming Mojave

13:25 PDT

The Trichocereus blooms are already closing up. An extravagant display like this takes up too much energy, uses too much water, so it can’t last long. Gather ye rosebuds while ye may.

11:30 PDT

I work as an archaeologist at the Las Vegas Springs Preserve, our office is next to a wonderful place of beauty, the Desert Demonstration Gardens. We’re all part of the Las Vegas Valley Water District. The Trichocereus has a gorgeous set of blooms framed by the blooming Blue Palo Verde. This will last less than a day!


Trichocereus

This individual Trichocereus blossom is about 10 inches (25 cm) across.


Trichocereus

What a beautiful plant.

A Blue Palo Verde in bloom - another view

They’re under this Blue Palo Verde tree in the garden.

The are two more pictures here and here.

4/26/2000

blivet 4/26/2000 Billions of people reading the truth,

Filed under: from blivet ETP — Hal @ 8:39 am

Billions of people reading the truth, not bedtime stories.

Provided they can get on the damn network!

20:25 PDT

The cable modem service in Las Vegas- Cox Communications - is down again. Things must have been OK during the day as mail was retrieved, but when I got home about 7 things were real slow trying to use the browser. I saw on Version Tracker that Quick Time had been updated so I fired up the updater program and waited for the download to start. The download was proceeding, but very slowly - about 1400 bps according to the window. Then it stopped with the little beachball spinning. I quit it after SETI@Home kicked on. When I retried it couldn’t find the host. I tried to manually check mail and that couldn’t find the host. The TCP/IP control panel showed that the subnet was 255.255.0.0 under DHCP which means that the server is not responding - but I knew that. Thank God for the university dialup, which ordinarily I don’t use. I can’t get over 26,400 over the phone lines. Welcome to how the other half lives eh Mr. Smarty-Pants cable modem? Well, if the foo shits …

Here’s some stuff I had been working on earlier…

19:10 PDT

[Ranking The Domain Name Registrars via slashdot] " You may be interested to learn that at least one registrar will only let you lease your name, and also that you’ll be signing different agreements, depending on which registrar you use." The Domain Name Buyer’s Guide rates the registrars according to both price and whether their contracts are consumer-friendly. That sound like a good service to the community to me. Protect your domain name.

working …

4/25/2000

blivet 4/25/2000 You never hear it,

Filed under: from blivet ETP — Hal @ 9:50 am

You never hear it, the one that gets you

20:40 PDT

[Scripting News] OK, one more thing. This is from a picture of UserLand’s vision for XML on a whiteboard: Billions of people reading the truth, not bedtime stories. I don’t think thats too much to ask for, do you? In fact, I think that will be tomorrow’s page title. First Amendment and all that…

19:50 PDT

[c|net via slashdot] AOL’s "youth filters" protect kids from Democrats.

     America Online provides "youth filters"
     that are supposed to keep kids out of dangerous Web
     sites--but they seem designed to eliminate creeping
     liberalism. 

     For example, if you've set up AOL to restrict your
     children to "Kids Only" Web sites:  

     Your children can easily view the site of the
     Republican National Committee, but the Democratic
     National Committee is blocked. Children can call up
     the conservative Constitution Party and Libertarian
     Party, both of which are promoting their own U.S.
     presidential candidates. But if they attempt to view
     Ralph Nader's Green Party or Ross Perot's Reform
     Party, they see only a "not appropriate for
     children" error.  

     AOL's "Young Teens" filter, designed for
     older children, allows a few more Web sites to be
     viewed. The apparent political bias, however,
     remains the same:  

     Sites promoting gun use are available, including
     Colt, Browning and the National Rifle Association.
     But prominent gun safety organizations are blocked,
     including the Coalition to Stop Gun Violence, Safer
     Guns Now and the Million Mom March.

     None of the blocked sites contain depictions of nudity
     or even models in swimwear. 

    "It's not just indecency that AOL is trying to keep
     away from children", says Susan Wishnetsky, a
     Chicago librarian.

Shame on you AOL! (Couldn’t resist) I’m not concerned about kids ’seeing things’ on the Internet. According to some, there is far ‘worse’ in the public library. Thank goodness for libraries and may they always be uncensored. I’m concerned with people who think that controlling access to information somehow will make people think a certain way, which is of course their way). Sadly, this knows no limitation in regards to political leanings, educational level, income, region, ethnicity, occupation, age, gender, whatever. Some folks think that other people can’t be trusted and I’ve always thought that that was because they knew that they couldn’t be trusted themselves. Parents have to be a part of their children’s lives and take the active part in their acculturation/enculturation and formation of their value system. I should probably say ‘first value system’ because if you’ve taught them that they are intelligent, reasoning beings they will experiment. As well they should. For a time its your job to bug your parents. Its just how it has come to be in this culture of cowboy ‘individualism’. Of which the signs of that individualism are marketd via the corporate mass media.

I have faith that children will come to reasonable, tolerant assumptions about the world and their place and role in it as they mature. Which probably happens by age 25 or so. Probably later if you’re an average male in this culture. But only if they have been allowed to mature during their childhood by loving, caring adults. Which means that we have to be mature as well. I only hope I’m ‘mature’ enough to accept that whatever my kids decide will probably be different from the decision I would make. I did the same with my parents, as they did with their parents. There are no extenuating circumstances here. If I had done ‘the smart thing’ I’d be an accountant or a MBA type. That’s what my mom wanted to be and passed along to me as her vision for me. I’d be just as outraged if the conservative sites were blocked and only Greenpeace, the Environmental Defense Fund, Planned Parenthood, and other ‘liberal’ information sources. Information wants to be free.

You know, sex isn’t bad or ‘dirty’. Its just sex. It all depends on how we view it and direct it, individually and as a group (culture). Sex gets weird when we’re obsessed with it. Killing people is pathological. People should be outraged by the content of most TV shoes and movies and rush their children away from the sight. Not from a glimpse of a woman’s nipple. When your default reaction to stress and conflict is violence, threats of violence, or suppressed urges to be violent, those are warning signs.

And that is enough for today….

13:00 PDT

[Reuters] "South African scientist makes dramatic apeman find." "The 1.5 million to two million-year-old skull was found in a previously unreported site a few kilometres (miles) from the renowned Sterkfontein Caves north of Johannesburg, where the most complete arm and hand of an apeman dating back 3.3 million years." The fossil is not in the line of direct human ancestry, as we currently have the clade mapped. ‘Apeman’? I know journalists dumb down science stories but puhlease.

[Las Vegas Murder Trial] KVBC-TV in Las Vegas has a live webcast of the Sandy Murphy and Rick Tabish murder trial. It is being broadcast free of talking head commentary. The two are accused of murdering Las Vegas casino heir Ted Binion on Sept. 17, 1998. This will be a made for TV movie you realize. It has all the ingredients, a millionaire heir to casino empire addicted to heroin takes in a stripper, the heir is found dead hours after he removes her from his will and the stripper’s boyfriend is apprehended trying to remove bars of silver from the heir’s hidden vault in the desert west of town. As long as they don’t cast Julia Roberts to play Murphy … these people are the typical Las Vegas thick-headded thugs, except one has a boob job.

On another tangent, I’m convinced that Las Vegas is the Mos Eisley of our parallel universe. "A more wretched hive of scum and villainy …" We need to be careful as we search for Obi-Wan.

09:50 PDT

Cybernetic tofu weasels somewhere in northern California gnawed through the Pac-Bell T1 causing an outage from approximately 10:45 am yesterday until around 6 am today. We’re are back now.

I really miss not being able to weblog - "you don’t miss your water, ’till your well runs dry".

this is what I was going to post yesterday, more will come later today

4/24/2000 12:30 PDT

Can’t connect, Can’t check email. OK, I can once in a while, but its not predictable. The real problem is that the service is not DEPENDABLE. That’s not too much to ask from a provider of services.

[new Warp Core by John Martellaro] What are the X languages one needs to know, in the year 2000, to be competitive in the marketplace? "In other words, where is the action? It turns out, I believe, that X = 4. Here they are, in the order you should learn them."

OK, a rant is back. Its not the original one but the same intent is here. What ISPs there in Las Vegas are in sore need of competition because, as a user I have few options. If I were trying to provide business services I’d be sunk. If I were a entrepreneur who wanted to move the internet for a web presence I’d be sunk unless I wanted to hand over the back end to someone out of state. (What state? Duhhhhhh, go West young man.)

But I’m just talking about being a reasonably competent end user. I just want to plug in my little home LAN and go… For a long time I had CompuServe on my Mac Plus. This was back when 2400 baud was a shiny object of desire. Then came AOL, but I wanted to get out to this Internet I had heard of. There were ftp sites out there with astronomical pictures from NASA and gopher sites that all kinds of resources, but I had to rely on the kindness of scientists, researchers, and students to upload to upload things to AOL. Then in 1991 I got my first shell account and got introduced to Unix. SunOS we’d call it now. At the same time I reentered the research community and suddenly in 1992 had a Sun Sparc5 on my desk at work. Finally, I could see what was going on out there. As POP clients began to appear for mere mortals (I was a beta tester at the university) things got better at home, but it was still mostly 14.4 over the modem. I wanted faster at home. I saw the way things just happened over my work connection. Move a file north to Reno <BAMPH> it just happened. From home though, it was a very different matter. I went through several different ISPs here in town, though I always kept the university connection because, well, it just worked,

The first ISP was really in Denver but they had some sort of local Point of Presence. It started out OK, it wasn’t as fast as the school connection, but it offered the chance to offer doing web pages for hire. This wasn’t too bad in 1994, though most folks who wanted web pages were technically savvy enough to do themselves. We weren’t, as Jack Rickard, the founder and former owner of Boardwatch once called "connecting Grandma", and since people weren’t online to buy, there wasn’t much call for web page designers locally. No matter, the DNS service was unreliable and the whole service was just slow. I went through a succession of five of the local providers. The service wasn’t too bad if you were online at 3 AM, but at 7:30 in the evening (assuming you could connect) it was glacial. Ping times were horrible, I didn’t last long with those services. When cable modems were announced I was ecstatic. I knew people who moved just to get in the neighborhoods where the service was being rolled out first. Finally, it was in our neighborhood and we were among the first to sign up. They promised (and still do) "512 kbps" but even when we were almost alone on our node I never got above 56 kbps directly from their servers, using their test pages. Those test pages have long since disappeared by the way. They won’t give you any ammunition to use against them. So what can I do, there is DSL, which is slowly being rolled out but we’re too far away from a switch. Some reports would imply that DSL might not quite be a prime-time event yet. There are other cable companies too, but there is a geographic territory for each of the providers, so yes, technically there is competition, but the reality is where you live determines your connectivity options. To change providers you would have to sell your house and move.

I leave the machines on 24/7, with a hub between the LAN and the cable, with the mailer set to check hourly. I know it should be a switch, but they have only recently become affordable for us. For the last two weeks, 11 out of 14 nights the mail server has crashed during the night and I’ve greeted with a log of ‘unable to connect’s starting about 2 AM. When I’m gone during the day, like at work, it fails again, at about 10AM. That’s been 10 out of 10 days at work. Sometimes I can just force a renewal of the DHCP lease and we’re fine, but six out of the last nine days the lease wouldn’t renew. Pings eventually time out and traceroutes won’t get past ‘localhost’. In these situations a hard reboot doesn’t help, though the cable modem status lights say everything is fine. I have no options as far as I’m concerned. Tech support has said (when I can get through) some variant of ‘Yeah, we’re having problems on the busy nodes, the senior techs are on it’. We have several web pages on their servers, most of them relate to my wife’s graduate program. Its a distance learning Master’s program and as a part of the curriculum she posts the results of her research online so the instructor, and now her committee, can see things as they’re progressing. Though she has never gotten more that a "your site’s hard to get to sometimes" comment from her advisor, I’ve had several people email me about not being able to get through. These are all symptoms of out of control growth like the Wall Street Journal wrote about. Calling so much usage an embarrassment of riches is typical of the financial press which I think is trying to put a good spin on earnings potential, rather than unresponsive service. At the least, a little head-up email about ‘we’ve experienced so much growth, please wait while we catch up’ sort of message would be appropriate.

We’ve gotten to the point now where we want to register some domains, both personal and for a growing business, but can’t find any options for running a back end of our own, much less setting up our own servers locally. Why would I want to go with someone who can’t provide standard service? These are the same guys that swore that there was nothing wrong on their end in terms of me sharing a printer over ether net locally for six weeks then quietly changed the very setting several people (Apple, Asanté and Hewlett-Packard tech support) had said must be incorrect. They didn’t even follow up with the documented incidents to say ‘try it now’. Personally, I think they’re holding on for dear life, just in a little bit over their heads. I have too many friends with Master’s in Computer Science that get their connectivity out of town and know about the situation here in Las Vegas to think otherwise.

The university used to be a bright spot, but there was a big shakeup a couple of years ago, you probably heard about some of the collegiate sports end of it. Lots of the Administration left under various circumstances and there were lots of reorganization. The Computer Science Department was taken out of the loop in terms of providing campus wide services and a new group was created to serve the faculty, staff and students that were not part of Computer Sciences and Engineering. ‘Enterprise Services’ like Lotus Notes became primary and the campus ’standardized’.I wasn’t able to access my account for several months (only the POP client) during the change over because I didn’t have an ‘approved client’. It turns out I wasn’t running the approved OS (three guesses). All the staff that were computer science graduates were forced out in a political power play and Novell and MSCE folks took their place. A system-wide deal was made for for our backbone connectivity too. I don’t know who we were with, but we moved to SPRINT and things have never been the same. I should probably say that I’m much more platform agnostic these days than I was, say four years ago, but I’m still not implementation agnostic. I watched the computing costs increase by a factor of 14 in the contract arm of the university system where I worked, and watched the department I was in at school suddenly not be able to afford to make xerox copies for classes because new support fees decimated the department budget. The Computer Science and Engineering departments still handle their own affairs. The two professors I know over there just say ‘I hear there’s lots of dissatisfaction with how things are now’. When I’ve asked what they’re doing over there I was told ‘we pick up some Alphas and Sun boxes, we’re doing fine’. Could be spin on their part, but somehow I doubt it.

If someone were to provide some options to consumers and businesses it would be a good thing. Right now, we’re just part of somebody’s pie chart for ‘projected ongoing revenues’. When you have no choices what can you do?

4/23/2000

blivet 4/23/2000 Just a ray of sunshine

Filed under: from blivet ETP — Hal @ 8:11 am

Just a ray of sunshine

14:15 PDT

Holy moley! I post a screed about the ISPs in Las Vegas, take it down 10 minutes later ’cause I think I’m being whiney and leave to work on Rimm’s computer across town. I come back around 2, check in and find out that Dave read the piece in the ten minutes it was up and posted about it on Scripting News. I’m sorry now I didn’t save it so I could put it back. Sorry Dave!

Mentioned on Scripting News. Wow.

BTW, whats a moley and why is having a holy one suitable for an exclamation?

08:05 PDT

I did have a long rambling whiney complaint (which I have removed) about Internet Service Providers bcause the mail server has been crashing on a regular basis for the last several days and web servers here are still down. Instead, I’m going to go away until I’m in a better mood…
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4/22/2000

blivet 4/22/2000 It is by thought alone …

Filed under: Books, Personal, Science Fiction, Zen, from blivet ETP — Tags: — Hal @ 10:31 am

It is by thought alone I set my mind in motion

19:30 PDT

[Science Fiction - Books] The 2000 Hugo Awards nominations have been posted. Thanks to backup brain for reminding me of such things.

13:45 PDT

Terra Institute is a nonprofit organization founded to develop and promote independent political, economic and environmental ideas and values. Thanks to Dave at Scripting News for pointing out this new site. BTW, its a Manila site too. update - just minutes laterToo cool! Its one of garret’s (of array) projects! It looks great! That quote of Aldo Leopold’s in the banner is one of my favorites.

Noon-thirty

[UniSci] Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder Not From Bad Parenting. "Researchers have laid to rest the myth that another mental disorder stems from “bad parenting.” A new study from Johns Hopkins has shown that obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), like schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, tends to run in families and has a strong genetic basis. " Sometimes its nature and sometimes its nurture. This certainly looks like nature. The confusion arose (I suspect, I certainly don’t know) from the familial connection. When you have this (heck, any) disorder you seek out the familiar which will be someone else who understands how the world works in the matrix of the disorder. They marry and reinforce the genetics. This works for alcholism, mania, whatever. IMHO.

I said I wouldn’t bring it up again and I won’t. I just hope its over soon.

Saturday morning

Today’s title reflects how I feel this morning. My body certainly isn’t cooperating, it wants to stay low, sluggish, inactive. Too often my mind is a willing accomplice, traveling the low road as well, all three of us planted in this old swivel chair, surplus from IBM when they shut down here in 1992. So thought comes to the rescue, if you can call it that, getting the body up, cajoling the reluctant personality (ego) into some semblance of activity. If I could tolerate watching TV I could probably be the ultimate couch potato. But, for whatever reason most TV bores me into activity, especially reruns, most sitcoms, dramas, especially anything with doctors, lawyers, or ‘military life’. Movies on TV don’t fare much better, even if they’re ‘classics’. I’m not sure what happened, but I really don’t care much for movies anymore, I used to like them, especially going to theatres. Lately, I seem to be seated very near someone who thinks they’re part of the movie, or at least thinks the character can hear them. Action movies often appear to trigger some sort of catharsis in their own life, especially if it involves blowing away someone in authority like a parent or boss. I’ve stopped asking for quiet. I just don’t go anymore.

There seems to be a conspiracy of audible clutter in our lives, ranging from the whirings, clatterings, and beeps of the machinery that infests our houses and business space, to the incessant drivel of what passes for radio disk jockeys. Somebody else’s music is often bad enough, but why do the DJs tell us so often that they ‘play more music’? How can you be doing that if you’re telling me about it? Once I agreed with the cultural critics that there was an attempt to keep us distracted so we would be more susceptible to purchasing suggestions, that there was a conspiracy by someone, ‘them’, to stifle introspection and by that, thought and growth. I think now that personal deconstructions reveal far more about the deconstructor than the deconstructee. You learn far more about yourself…

Ming Zhen once commented to me "do you think yogis like going off and living in caves with bugs and dirt?". So it is by thought alone that I seek to wrest my life back from the passivity that creeps in through fatigue and the assaults of 21st century life. We all have the power to do so, just because we hear it or see it doesn’t mean that it is part of us. It is part of the pageant of our collective lives and society, but we can choose whether or not to incorporate it into our personal lives. We must simply make the choice.

4/21/2000

blivet 4/21/2000 My head hurts

Filed under: from blivet ETP — Hal @ 7:18 am

My head hurts

[Corel warns investors it could soon go broke] "Corel Corp. is warning investors it could run out of cash in the next three months if a pending deal for Inprise/Borland Corp. or other solutions are not found." The story notes that this is a ‘worst case scenario’. <rant> I say GOOD!. The market has spoken. I’m not much of a market capitalist, if at all, but Corel screws up everything it touches. I used to use WordPerfect on both PCs at work and on my Macs. Novel didn’t do WP any favors, but WordPerfect has been neglected and mishandled under Corel’s watch, and just become unuasable. It used to be a great program. I write for a living and it was a great tool! Now I have to use Word. Bah. My last two weeks with CorelDraw at work has just been a slow-motion bus crash. I had to get a profile drawing out today, the whole freaking report process was hung up on me trying to get a simple line drawing done. Crash, Crash, Crash went CorelDraw. It not only hung the NT box I have at work, it hosed it. Every time. I could log out and then back in, but the network drives all disappeared. Reboot. Reboot, reboot, reboot. I tried saving all the time. After I lost a whole layer during one of the freezes I got compulsive about saving. I could print once, a second attempt would hang things. I had to reboot the damn machine 12 times between 10:30 and 3:30. That doesn’t include the hour for lunch. I was livid. I won’t even get into the brain dead implementation of Bezier curves. Yeah, I know, "it doesn’t work like Illustrator or Freehand". I switch back and forth between applications all the time, I’m used to things that work differently. Differently is fine, as long as they freaking work! I was not proud today that some folks knew I was a priest, though no one probably noticed except that I was very quiet. Some priest. I imagined I had a bulging, throbbing vein on my forehead from all the pent up frustration, like the guy in Pi. If Corel goes out of business, it won’t happen too soon, as far as I’m concerned. </rant>

Now, where was I?

garret lamented earlier today that he had got a late start and all the good stories were taken. I understand, I feel like that all the time. “;=>” I just post the story anyway and point to the weblog where I saw it first. I find that garret often has some of the best links on array. Thats not to slight backup brain, Scripting News or anyone else that I read religiously and point to a lot. You bloggers all do great work. I like to think that we’re all trying as hard as we can to do a good job, in every aspect of our lives in fact. I hope folks find blivet worthwhile occasionally. Hmmm, getting a little introspective after that Corel rant I think.

Have a pleasant first Friday after the first full moon after the Spring Solstice, whether you’re having a Seder dinner, celebrating Good Friday, preparing for the Green Man celebration, or whatever. Amitofo.

[New theory in bones linked to Alexander the Great] A skeleton thought to be that of Alexander the Great’s father, Philip of Macedon, is no such thing, a researcher said on Thursday. He thinks the skeleton, unearthed in the Northern Greek farm village of Vergina in 1977, is actually that of one of Alexander’s half-brothers.

[More warm-blooded dinosaurs] Images of the interior of a 66 million-year-old dinosaur fossil show it had the heart of a warm-blooded animal, adding to evidence that dinosaurs were not slow and plodding but quick and hungry, scientists said on Thursday. The computed tomography scans were done on a fossil nicknamed “Willo” to show the dinosaur had a four-chambered heart more like mammals than lizards. Robert Bokker got it right a long time ago with his ‘bird hips’ in Dinosaur Herisies. Story at Reuters, CNN. slashdot has a pointer to dinoheart.org, a site focusing on the research.
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4/20/2000

blivet 4/20/2000 Just a hired trowel

Filed under: Archaeology, History, Personal, Software, TV, Work, from blivet ETP — Hal @ 7:07 am

Just a hired trowel

The rest of the day, after some site preparation for the construction crew for the viewing platform, was spent doing some GPS work and fighting with CorelDraw. The GPS points overlaid the aerials perfectly, though I can’t figure out where the point for auger hole 26 went and I couldn’t find the stake for #10 <DOH!>. Its amazing what you can forget in two weeks. I don’t know *what* Corel’s problem is. I can print once to the 8100 (nice printer BTW) but the second time I hit ctrl-P (or click "Print", it doesn’t matter) I am visited by the hourglass from Hell. Not a BSOD, but the login is hosed. I can kill the process in NT’s task manager, but nothing will respond after that. It also loses track of the default printer, its probably all related somehow. I don’t know if NT 5^H^H^H^H Win2000 would be any better, I’m of the opinion that Corel apps don’t play nice with the other kids on the playground. This is my first experience with an organization with an IS department providing the applications you use, so there’s probably a bit of ‘innocence lost’ here as well. Still, I just don’t think Illustrator or Freehand would be as ill mannered.

The ‘blob’, formerly known as the feature at Locus 25, remains unidentified. It sure is a big dark hunk of soil … Oh well, ya can’t win ‘em all. Tomorrow, after the staff meeting, I need to redo the general profile graphic for the Little Spring House (thats where the Observation Platform is being built) the right way. We ended up doing sort of a ‘compliance job’ and that just wasn’t right. We have the freedom to do this project the right way so why not start out that way. Most CRM reports are bound by regulations that stipulate exactly how things are presented because too often things are done hastily and corners get cut, so you get told that ‘this will be included in this format’. When they know what they’re doing at all. In the absence of wisdom, rules arise.

[The sideshow behind "Roadshow" continues]

"’Antiques’ pique: WGBH yanks ‘Roadshow’ helmet episode after doubts surface
WGBH has pulled another episode of ‘Antiques Roadshow’ because the station could not verify that an appraisal of a 17th century Milanese parade helmet was not staged for TV."

You remember this episode, the one where the woman found the metal Italian dress helmet in her Uncle’s attic (he had been in the European theater in WWII). It struck both of us as strange. Our scenario was that he was young and picked it up in Italy as some sort of war booty from a Museum that was bombed. When he got back to the States he stuck (hid) it up in the attic because he knew what he did was wrong and he didn’t know how to ‘undo’ it. I remember Audrey said at the time "That needs to go back to the Museum it came from! It shouldn’t even be appraised!" I agree. If it was staged, and I’m not convinced it was, thats just sad. Thanks to garret for the link.

Sometimes you think of a great page title, often while driving, always when you can’t write it down. Today’s title was not thought of while driving - you do the best you can …

Spring in the Mojave is just glorious. I was outside all day yesterday working on the uhhhh, feature. We still have no idea what it is (was). It is tailor-made for a "Sometimes Archaeologists can’t identify what they uncover" part of an exhibit. Every project of any size has one, usually we don’t talk about them much. Its bad enough when you’re rummaging through your own stuff and find a box full of … ‘What the hell is this crap?’. Rummaging through other people’s trash is very problematic at times. "Archaeologists are the senile playboys of society, rummaging through the garbage heaps of antiquity." - Unknown (19th century) That’s from the frontispiece of an intro textbook I had, I’ve always liked it.

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